I was so confident while on bed rest in Colorado. I don't know what changed when I came home. I have been anxious and so nervous. I know it's not good to be like this, I just can't control it. I wish it was Saturday, on that day I will know the results and have a day off. I am too scared to POAS because I don't want to see only 1 line, I will be too scared to answer that 303 number on Thursday because I don't want to hear the words "You're Not Pregnant". I wish CCRM would just not call if it was negative I would be fine with that. I think hearing those words are going to be hard. I want to POAS the night before but I am just too scared to buy a test let alone pee on it. I told my family and friends that if they don't hear from me, it's not good news. I want to be more hopeful and positive right now so bad. I keep telling myself to be.
CCRM gave me a 60% chance at success so I feel like I can only try to be 60% positive. I know we transferred an amazing embryo but sometimes I don't think that matters.
Obviously this wait is not going well, this is the worse waiting I have ever done in my life. I know I will make it no matter what I am still praying and hoping for the best.
Waiting is the worst part...hang in there, only two more sleeps!
ReplyDeleteHang in there! If you want to see a 303 number come up on the phone and practice answering, I'd be happy to give you a call here from Boulder, CO! :)
ReplyDeleteYou can do it... stay strong, hang in there!
ReplyDelete60% is better than 40%. I had the same odds and you had a beautiful embryo....just try to keep thinking positive. I hope Saturday comes quickly.
ReplyDeleteThis is the worst part and you are almost there. I think it is natural to be a nervous wreck during this waiting period, because you have invested so much in this and the stakes are high. But the odds are definitely in your favor even if you don't feel like they are:) Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI am sure it is a whirlwind of emotions, one minute you are positive and the next you are not. 60% is great, just concentrate on that. Stay strong, you are almost there!
ReplyDeleteI feel ya hun!!! I Hope that 60% chance brings you your Christmas miracle :)
ReplyDeleteHang in there Krista!! Sending prayers your way...
ReplyDeleteHang in there Krista! The wait is so hard!
ReplyDelete60% is HUGE!! Hugs...hang in there. Go see a movie - Tower Heist (if it's still in the theaters is a good caper) - to pass the time...
ReplyDeleteI had 25% odds for success and I actually fell into the right side of the stats (thanks to CCRM miracles). I also was too afraid to POAS and be faced with a single line... you are in the worst part of the 2ww... it's torture! I will hold on to hope for you during this time that you are too afraid to let yourself hope. Thinking of you!!
ReplyDeleteThere is no way to make this easier...except maybe getting a grip on plan B, knowing you have one more shot if this does not go as planned. Trying to stay positive is exhausting...just try to keep busy to distract your mind. I so wish you good news!! Only a little bit longer!!
ReplyDeleteYour odds are great, but it's impossible not to worry because you never know. I hope you can hang in there, you are almost there!!
ReplyDeleteAm really praying for a positive for you! C'mon Saturday, get here soon!