Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Another CD1

With that hopefully another calendar for our upcoming FET. I don't know what the next step is but I guess I will find out. I was hoping to have CD1 wait until Friday but I guess not. I have to admit I am obsessing over our 2 embryos like crazy. I want to put both in because I really would like to have twins and never have to do this again. Yet, I am so scared that it won't work and we will lose both of them. These are some questions I have for Dr. G on Friday. My major concern is my uterus I want to make sure it will be a perfect home for them, so I am going to ask how my lining looked during all the u/s while were were in CO and about endo. I don't know much about endo but I have read so many blogs about it and I want to rule it out. I called my local gyno and they do a endo biopsy test in office so I was thinking about that. I am going to ask Dr. G of course what he thinks. I don't think I have endo but then I read on-line and most women don't know they have it. I spent way too much time on the internet this weekend reading about our embryo quality and endo. I mean way too much time where I was freaking myself out. I am spending time with a friend in Cali this weekend so I won't be obsessing so much.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Up Next

I called CCRM back yesterday to ask about scheduling and FET. My nurse told me to call them back on CD1. That should be next week sometime. I am pretty lost in my cycle right now, I know I ovulated but can't remember when that was. I think CD1 will be next Friday so that will be perfect, we have our re-group with Dr. G that day. I don't know anything about FET because I never thought I would get this far. I remember them talking to me about it when we were in CO but I told them we just want to take this one day at a time. Danielle (genetic counselor) even told me to schedule it when we were there in August. I did not do that of course. I have read over everyone's FET and I don't know whether I should do a medicated cycle or not. I guess that is something I will ask Dr. G next week. I am still over the moon that we have 2 normal embryos. With that new worries come up... the un-freeze, implantation and my work schedule. I am really busy during the fall/winter time in AZ. I work in recreation so it's the time of year we can actually enjoy the outdoors. I am going to start acupuncture again and listen to my positive audio books at work.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Results Are In...

Dr. G called me at 11:17am (AZ time). I couldn't believe it when I saw that 303 number calling me. I knew this was it. I was so ready for tears and bad news...but....we have 2 normal blasts. I can hardly believe it. I didn't even know what to say to Dr. G. I told him I was not expecting this at all and I thought this conversation was going to be about my next IVF cycle. He did mention doing another cycle to bank more embryos but I don't want any more than 2 kids. He did tell me they tested the 4 embryos that grew to day 3 and of the 4 only 1 was abnormal, it had an extra chromosome 22. We don't know if our children will have a balanced translocation like my husband but that is fine. I believe by the time they have kids they will be able to test each egg/sperm before fertilization. Anyways, we have a re-group with Dr. G on Sept 30th. I told him I will be able to talk to him more then, because the results are simply blowing my mind. I have never been pregnant but basically it felt like he was telling me we are pregnant. I know we have a long way to go. I am going to continue to take this one day at a time. We have no FET scheduled, no plans for anything yet.

Thank you all for your prayers and positive thoughts & energy. I really needed it! 

Monday, September 19, 2011

Results Not Ready

I feel like I have been stuck on a rollercoaster of emotions through this entire year. I really want to get off and try to relax and stay stress free for a bit. I called CCRM today like I said I would, I left a message at 7:50am AZ time and Annie called me back at 8:35am my time to let me know the results still are not in. She said it had to do with the microdose procedure that we did.  I have no idea what the means but I am fine with that. As long as they weren't holding out on me. She said we should have the results hopefully by Friday. I feel better just knowing the results aren't in yet. I am going to try to relax and not blame CCRM for my results, it's not their fault we have crappy sperm. It's nobody's fault and I need to be happy that we can even make our own embryos. I will post as soon as I hear the results...good or bad.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

No Call?! No Results?!

I really, really hope they don't have the results yet. Why? Well, if they do have them and they made me wait 4 weeks to get them I will be pretty pissed and upset. I will lose all faith in CCRM that I ever had. So I hope that the results are really taking this long. I believe they have them and nobody is communicating it with each other. I know they are busy but I paid my 21,500, plus meds, plus travel, plus u/s & labs so I too deserve a phone call. I am calling again right away on Monday morning. I can't take it any more I want to either start planning for another cycle or FET. I hate to say it but we might not go back to CO for another IVF cycle, we feel like a lot of things should have happened better for us on this cycle. I know I have mentioned it here before but my local RE got Dr. G's wife pregnant with IVF so I trust him and feel he can do the same for me. I am not making any permanent decisions about future cycles until we find out the results and if the result are done how long they have been ready. These 4 weeks have been hell for me. I am so ready for the next step.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

I Called-No Results Yet

Yep, I broke down and called. All of your comments had my stubborn ass convinced I better call. Guess what...no result yet! Annie told me because of the holiday it can take longer. She is going to ask the embryologist tomorrow about the results. The embryologist was gone today already. So hopefully I have my answer tomorrow. I still feel like the results are in. We shall see...

No Results

I am convinced that CCRM is afraid to call me with the results. It's been 3 weeks and 3 days since the embryos were tested. I know I should call but I am not going to make it easy for them. I want them to do their job and call me. I sound a little pissy I know, I think about the results all day, everyday and look at my phone all the time. I could be upset for no reason, we could have at least 1 normal embryo which I would be thrilled about but since I still have no results I am convinced the results are bad.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Too Scared To Call

I think a few others have had this same post. It was 2 weeks on Monday that they did the CCS testing so results should be here. I am not going to call, I am just going to wait until they call me, unless they don't call until October I will call them before that. I just want to hold on to what we do have. I don't want to start planning for the next step or another IVF right now. My husband and I are going to Vegas this weekend so I defiantly don't want bad news before out trip. My husband is working at the Ironman expo so I thought I would go along to help. We have adopted the Giuliani and Bill motto "the year of fun" ours won't actually be a year of fun but at least fun until next year.