Pregnant!

I can hardly believe it! Well, I guess I can because when I look back at this past week I totally had all the symptoms and I still do!

My beta today was 391 so nice and strong!

I did POAS last night and it had 2 lines before I could even put the lid back on. We are beyond excited to get past this first hurdle. I know there are many more the next few weeks but right now I feel it's so not real.

Thanks again for your prayers, positive thoughts and wonderful comments!

Here is my pic from last night. My sister thinks I am weird for sharing it but I still am going to share!

Tomorrow Is Beta Day

It's been a hell of a road getting to tomorrow. Today I feel like I will be ok. I know I want this to work more than anything in the world but I think I am prepared for the worse. I plan on taking a test tonight. I have purchased pee tests and I decided that finding out together will be better than finding out at work, alone. Besides I guarantee the lab will mess up my STAT order as they always do. Thanks for all the positive thoughts, kind words and for cheering me on this year. I won't post until I hear my beta number so probably tomorrow afternoon sometime.

The Wait...

I was so confident while on bed rest in Colorado. I don't know what changed when I came home. I have been anxious and so nervous. I know it's not good to be like this, I just can't control it. I wish it was Saturday, on that day I will know the results and have a day off. I am too scared to POAS because I don't want to see only 1 line, I will be too scared to answer that 303 number on Thursday because I don't want to hear the words "You're Not Pregnant". I wish CCRM would just not call if it was negative I would be fine with that. I think hearing those words are going to be hard. I want to POAS the night before but I am just too scared to buy a test let alone pee on it. I told my family and friends that if they don't hear from me, it's not good news. I want to be more hopeful and positive right now so bad. I keep telling myself to be.
CCRM gave me a 60% chance at success so I feel like I can only try to be 60% positive. I know we transferred an amazing embryo but sometimes I don't think that matters.
Obviously this wait is not going well, this is the worse waiting I have ever done in my life. I know I will make it no matter what I am still praying and hoping for the best.

5dpt

After today I only have 4 more days to go. I have been very confident one minute that this worked and then not so much the next. I want to POAS so bad, I just keep telling myself to go buy one and just do it already, then I won't have to feel this worry anymore. Ugh, the mental battle I am having with myself is killing me. I was thinking about POAS on Thursday morning, the morning of beta day so when I get the call I will be prepared. I really can't imagine getting the call at work and not crying not matter what the result is. DH is dead set against that but he can be easily convinced. I also think the lab folk will mess up the results for me like they do every time I go there. 


I know many don't have any symptoms during the 2ww (9 days). But I just want to put it out there what I have had.


Symptoms: 1dpt & 2dpt: I didn't have much the first couple of days, just some light cramping in the uterus. It kinda felt like ovulation pain. Not strong at all.
3dpt: My breast are sore to touch. Sore lower back and tired quickly which I think both are related to bed rest.
4dpt: Super sore breasts, sore lower back and on/off AF type cramping but not as strong, super bloated. My entire body felt like I was run down, almost flu like but I am not sick.
5dpt: Sore breasts, not as sore as past days. Some of those AF type cramping again.


I know most of what I am feeling can and probably is due to the medications I am on, estrogen and progesterone. The week of Thanksgiving when I upped my estrogen I felt nauseous that entire week and my breast were super duper tender but the week of FET all of that went away. I can clearly not trust my body it is not my own. I just keep praying that this is working. 


After FET Medications: 
Vivelle (Estrogen, 4 patches) -changed every other day
Prometrium (Progesterone 200mg) -inserted vaginally 3x per day
Baby aspirin - one per day
Vitamin D supplement - one per night
Prenatal vitamins - one per night

Home Again

It's nice to be home again and relaxing on the coach. I am officially done with bed rest but I am still taking it easy. The embryo should have implanted by now and I sure hope it continues to dig in deep for the long haul. I hate that my mind can't stop thinking about what could possibly be going on in my uterus. I wish my body would give me some sort of sign that this really worked. I guess I will just have to wait until Thursday. I am not going to test before that day. I don't even own any pregnancy tests and haven't even purchased one of those in over a year so that part should be easy. I am sure I will have good days and bad days until beta day.

WOW, PUPO!

I have been waiting a long time to say that. I currently on bed rest at our hotel downtown Denver. A snowstorm is coming tonight and tomorrow and I am so excited! I must say I am so glad we stay here instead of Lone Tree. Even though I am confined to the bed, there are a lot more options for food and I am enjoying the view from my room.

Here is the most amazing pic ever, I just can't stop staring at it!

So here is my FET recap. First off, Terry from the lab called at 8am asking how many we wanted to transfer. As I mentioned we have been on the fence about this. I told him we had not decided yet and we need to call back. After much talk the night before and that morning we decided to stick with 1 embryo. It came down to complete faith in each embryo. I just felt these 2 made it this far for a reason and they will be survive.
The entire start to finish went super fast. We weren't schedule until 3pm for the actual transfer but I arrived at CCRM for labs and acupuncture at 1:15pm. The acupuncture was actually in the room you do the transfer in. I really am glad I spend the the extra money on acupuncture. Tanya was amazing I really, really enjoyed it, I wish I could take her back to Arizona with me. As soon as acupuncture was done, which was around 2pm the ultrasound tech came in and said we are ready to go. Dr. G is ready, the embryo is ready, so we need to get moving. I had told them I didn't even have my valuim yet. They gave it to me quickly and Dr. G came in to go over the transfer details. Our 5AA was the one chosen for transfer and he/she thawed 100% with no damage. He said it thawed so good that we had to put it in right away because it was completely hatching out of the shell. The embryologist also said, "they should all look like that".  I was so excited to hear that. The staff is really good at making you feel good. Of course I was scared the entire time before transfer that it would not thaw correctly. Now I wish I didn't waste so much energy on stuff like that.
Next the u/s ladies checked my bladder, it was ready to go and we were off. Dr. G did a trial run and he did have a little trouble getting through my cervix because of scar tissue but he was able to use a smaller catheter to get through. The entire procedure was completely painless. It was just so amazing to see the embryo on the screen and then the spot it was place in my uterus.
There were a few confusions during the procedure since everything was so rushed. When the embryologist came to check my arm band, verify name and confirm the number of embryos she was shocked that I didn't have one yet and the nurse had to come in to give that to me. No big deal really to me but I could tell they were like, what, no arm band?
After the procedure I had to go in the bedpan. I tried to hold it but it was too painful. I had after the transfer acupuncture and then when our time was up, we were able to leave. I felt a little woozy from the valium and slept in the hotel when I got back.

Today I am scared to move, sneeze and laugh. I watched Bridesmaids and I was laughing so hard I felt bad but the acupuncturist said it was good to laugh.
Out pregnancy test is Thursday, December 8th. Now that it is all over I am feeling cautiously confident that it will work.
Thank you all for your support and for such wonderful blogs. This is my first IVF and my first FET and without the knowledge from everyones blog I would not know as much as I do. So thank you all!

FET Officially Scheduled

I got the call from CCRM today that my FET is scheduled for Tuesday, November 29th at 3pm. I need to arrive at 1:15pm to do the pre-transfer acupuncture. My progesterone is good it came it at 9.5, they want it >5. During the phone call today they asked how many we are transferring and I told them only one. I have been on the fence about this since the CCS results. The entire time before IVF I was so excited at the chance of possibly having twins, I guess that all changed during the re-group with Dr. G. I want the best possible outcome for all of this and I know transferring two would increase those chances but two is all we have. I know one does not need the other to survive. Right now I hoping and praying everything goes well with the thaw and this little miracle continues to grow.