Thursday, December 22, 2011

Possibly 6 weeks today?

I still feel pregnant so that is my motivation right now for me to think everything is going to be OK.  My boobs are crazy sore with many veins on them already. Also the smells I smell, I am not nausea but I and not hungry either. I literally have to force myself to eat 3 times a day. This morning my husband made me oatmeal and I couldn't eat it because it smelled like tuna.
Of course in the back of my mind I am prepared for the worst on Tuesday but right now I have to just hope and pray for the best. I pray all day long that God put his hands around this little one and helps it grow so someday I can put my arms around him or her.
I can't say things haven't been rough, of course I googled every word from the u/s I received when I went to the ER and having an irregular shaped gestational sac is not a good thing. But there were so many conflicting things from that report that I have just been trying to put it out of my head.
I know there are a lot of prayer going up to God right now from all out our immediate family members we told. They have all been through the entire process with us so they know everything that is going on. I tell me mom, dad and sisters everything, probably too much.
It's so amazing how much infertility affects so many people. My MIL called to tell me a story on the day I told her I had bleeding. She called her sister (about my bleeding/miscarriage scare) who was at a Shop.ko in Sou.th Dak.ota to tell her the news so they decided to pray together. Her sister stopped in an aisle in the store and prayed out loud with my MIL on the phone. Of course 2 people over heard her 1 man, 1 women, not a couple either. Both were or had someone they knew also going through infertility. The man and his wife did 11 IUI's and are moving on to IVF and the women's relative had IVF and now had a baby of her own. They both prayed for us too. The man even asked what our first names were so he could pray for us.
I pray everyone gets to hold their baby after infertility. I know, no matter what happens on Tuesday. We will be OK. We are prepared for whatever the outcome may be.

12 comments:

  1. This just made me cry, Krista. It's amazing the power of prayer and knowing that you have people all over the world praying for you and this little one right now. You're right - you will be okay either way, but I am filled with so much hope that you will be holding this precious babe in your arms roughly 34 weeks from now.

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  2. I'm holding onto hope for you also. It sounds like things are going better and that has to be a good sign. Will be thinking of you and awaiting your ultrasound results.

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  3. I am hopeful for you too and impressed with your amazing outlook and attitude.

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  4. I hope everything is OK. I have my u/s on Tues too. It's going to be a weekend full of anxiety for both of us!

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  5. Sounds like you are not having anymore bleeding and your pregnancy symptoms are still there, so that is a good sign! I was thinking the other day that you transferred a tested normal embryo that implanted, so I think your chances for a good report on Tuesday are pretty darn good. I hope the time passes quickly for you!

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  6. Awww... this is so sweet, I'm so glad you are feeling the love and support of everyone around you. I'm so sure you and your baby will be fine, I hope time flies by for you so you can have the joy of hearing your baby's heartbeat. Happy holidays Krista!! xoxo

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  7. Stay strong Krista - we're all 'out here' hoping and praying for a great ultrasound on Tuesday!

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  8. Faith over fear!!! Praying hard for you and baby hunny. Hugs...

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  9. I am praying for you as well. Pregnancy signs are always good signs. Hang in there dear.

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  10. Oh that story of her praying in the store and others joining is just amazing!! Know that you have many praying for you right now!

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  11. Hoping so. Hoping as strong and as fervently as I can for you.

    Mo

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  12. I really believe that it's all going to work out for you. I am keeping my fingers crossed that all looks great at your ultrasound.

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