Let me tell you, it's sucks. I keep thinking I should be pregnant right now but instead I am having to deal with the most heavy period ever!!!!
People tell me... it's not the end of the world, at least I have a child and that child is healthy. Well, you know what I say to that FUCK YOU!!!! I fought hard for the child we have now where most people can just have some fun sex and make babies, we CAN'T and we will NEVER be able to do that.
As you can tell I am still pretty upset by all of this. I have not had a re-group with Dr. G yet. He called to say his small piece on Monday but I need to call and schedule a re-group. I guess I am not ready to do that yet because I have not called yet to do that. I am pretty sure I will be charged for that...
Right now I want another child more than ever. I know good embryos don't always equal a child but I really wanted mine too.
We don't know where to go from here, I wish 3 years ago I would have borrowed the money to bank more embryos but we didn't. Now, if we did another cycle, I just don't know if we would get any that made it to day 5 to even get tested. That would be $$ down the drain...ugh...why is this so difficult. So right now I don't know where we will go from here. If anyone has any advice please let me know your thoughts!!!