It's Official...BFN!

So I got the call today and as I suspected it's a BFN.

My WTF appointment will be with Dr. G next week as he is out of town this week. I am pretty happy about that actually. I am not ready to talk about it.

I don't know where we will go from here. We don't plan on deciding today. We may do another round, we may not. I  just don't know!

I know we have Logan and we love him more than anything but this is hard. Every hour I go through all 5 stages of grief.

Tonight I plan on eating burgers and drinking beer to help with the pain.

No Line...

I caved and tested early. I am beyond sad. No line, not even a hint of a line. Waiting until Thursday is going to kill me.
I want to move on, infertility sucks!! I will no longer post here anymore 😞

Bedrest

Let me just start off by saying...I can't believe we are here again. Everything seems so surreal! I will say actually this time I was way more nervous because I knew what to expect.

The transfer went great, my biggest fear of course was the thaw and our embryo thawed 100%, they said it didn't even look like it was even frozen. Seriously, the thought of all that blows me away.

Transfer details:
Arrived at 12pm: labs were drawn
12:20pm: acupuncture and Valium (highly recommended to help relax)
1:15pm: the transfer
After the transfer I rested for about 20min, acu started again then I was done. Things really move quickly once you get there.

So here I am currently on bed rest. I will leave you all with a picture of our embryo.

FET Tomorrow!

We are scheduled for our transfer at 1:15pm. I am so hoping and praying everything goes well with the thaw, I will make my husband answer the phone in the morning if I see they call back a second time.

We are so cautiously hopeful that this will work. Everyone always asks me if it is easier this time around. Well, we know what to expect but we don't know the outcome. That's all I can say.

March 18th- FET!

I sure did forget all the crap you have to deal with when trying to get pregnant. Between the gyno calls, pharmacy calls, insurance calls and CCRM calls. I was about to lose my mind! Actually I did take a trip to crazy-town after calling Avella to get my Lupron, I only had to call them 7 times in 3 days to make sure they were sending my order...UGH!!! Insurance and companies sure have changed these past 2 years!
Anyways, we are finally on track with everything and we are scheduled for March 18th for our next FET!! I started my lupron shots yesterday and have been on BCPs for a week.

I hope and pray every night and pretty much all day long that this works. It scares me to death!

In Logan news, he is beyond amazing at 18months. We are so in love this little guy! I need to share a picture, I know not many people read this anymore but who doesn't like to share pictures of their little ones?! Logan is no longer a baby and we are in full toddler mode! He is super tall and already wears 2T he will be in 3T before summer begins.

Hope all is well with everyone.

ODWU=FET

Well...here we go again! I had my ODWU in Colorado in December. I flew there by myself this time.
I started taking BCPs on Saturday and will continue that until we get my cycle timed with our upcoming FET. I don't have a calendar yet because they are waiting for my recent pap to be sent over.

Right now we are hoping for a March 11th or 14th FET. It is SO weird getting the phone calls from 303 again, I just get so nervous every time. So much fear and hope is constantly swirling through my head.

How Time Flies!

Wow how time flies!!! I know we all say it and go through it and we never have a minute to realize it until it's gone. We are enjoying every moment with Logan and I can't believe he is almost 15months...SERIOUSLY time flies!!!

Sorry, this is not a post where I am going to tell you surprise we are pregnant, I wish!!! That will never happen for us. We have genetic issues here. I know it has happened to so many bloggers out there. I am so happy for all of you. That is just amazing news!!

Now on to the updates, the last time I posted I was talking about how we were ready for another FET...
Well, when I wrote that Logan was not a busy toddler and I was not in my super busy season at work.

So...we are waiting to do another FET until late February or early March. We only have 1 more shot at this and I am totally fine waiting a little bit longer. Who knows?? We could have another baby by next Christmas!!