We Have A Biter

I know I wanted to be done with breastfeeding in February but I never thought it would end this way. Two nights ago I was feeding Logan at 4am and he bit me, HARD! I yelled and he smiled at me. I was in shock. When I got home from work the next day I fed him and he did it again! That time he cried because I had to unlatch him with my finger. That night, I fed him again, at 4am (the kid is clockwork) and this time I got a nipple shield and ALL he did was bite. So with that, he is no longer getting the boob. I have read lots of stuff on what to do for a biter but honestly, I can't do it. I can't feed him again with the boob, the bites hurt BAD! He has 2 teeth and they are sharp. From what I read they say any baby under 9 months will not wean themselves off but I think he did. He loves the bottle because he is getting more food. Last night I woke up to feed him and pumped, he ate 7oz. When I was feeding him I would only feed him with one boob and I can't get 7oz from just one, so I really think he figured it out. With a bottle he gets what he needs. I am only sad because our last time together was not a pleasant one. I am still pumping but only for one more week. Pumping sucks, I hate pumping at work, at home and especially in the middle of the night. I never thought I would breastfeed this long any ways, it's been so easy until now.

I wish I got a pic of those teeth but here is one of him trying to feed himself already. I read so much about all the different approaches for feeding but basically it comes down to our lifestyle and who is feeding him. I stressed out too much about it. 

We started feeding him "solids" two weeks ago and he loved it. He was so ready. 

5 Months

Boy how time flies! Logan is 5 months already. We so enjoying watching him grow, develop, learn and get frustrated, sometimes all at the same time. Here is a pic of us from January 5th, when he turned 5 months. It's been a fun month, my favorite so far...except for the teething. I wish that could have held off for a couple more months.

Exercise: Well I really indulged this holiday season and it shows! I still have 15lbs to drop and will be working on that starting NOW!!!

 I want to be better at posting here. I finally started my new family blog. It's getting there, I deleted one I started and decided to do word press. I so hope to get it going this weekend.

This post will be quick as I plan to post in more detail on my family blog.

The holidays were amazing, except traveling. Our flight was the one of many that got cancelled and we were stuck in Denver for 2 days. We couldn't even rent a car to drive home because they were all gone.  Logan did amazing though! He loves looking at people and being part of the action.

Breastfeeding: I am still breastfeeding but that will be coming to an end soon, probably February. It's been pretty easy for us so no complaints but we want to try for baby #2 in May... so it's time to start preparing already.  I think Logan is so ready for "real" food. He got mad at me last night for not feeding me when I was eating and he has been taking down 8oz bottles. I can't keep up with that. So we are going to supplement with formula. We are going to probably try this weekend. I have been so torn on what to feed him, I just need to figure it out along with finding out what formula to start using. If any of you have any suggestions, please share!!!



Teething: Our little guys has his 2 bottom teeth already, he got them last week. He has been a little more fussy before he goes to bed. I did have to give him Tylenol twice because he was in a lot of pain. I felt so bad for him.

Sleep: Well...he would probably be sleeping through the night every night but the teething has him waking up randomly at either 5 or 6 but then he goes back to sleep until 7:30am. He's a very good sleeper and he is still taking 2-2 1/2 hour naps, twice a day. Also, I am pretty sure he is going through a growth spurt, all of a sudden his 9month jammies are too small and he woke of 3 times last night to eat.

Work, Baby, Exercise, Childcare

I started our family blog a couple weeks ago but when I went to log into it the other night to fix it up a bit, I couldn't find it anywhere. So weird!!!! I was using Wordpress so not sure what is up with that. I will figure it out soon. I really want to document Logan's life better.

• Work: I started back to work full-time on October 29th. I am doing OK but miss Logan tons!!!! Everything we talk about at works seems so meaningless. I wonder if that will change?! I have to work because we need the insurance, I work for Parks & Recreation (yes, like the show but way more fun). My benefits are amazing, not amazing as in, they pay for IVF, but everything else is covered. I am looking ahead to our next FET, which insurance covers the meds for that and all the blood work and ultrasounds during those first 13 weeks.

• Baby Logan is amazing! Everyday, I mean everyday, we can't believe it. We just love him so very much. Logan is a BIG boy, he is currently wearing 6months onesie. I don't know his exact measurements but he weights about 18lbs and is 26 inches long.  He sure doesn't look like a 3 month old. I recently purchased 9months Christmas sleepers.  Sleep is going GREAT!!!! I think is he almost ready to sleep through the night. We read several books and did Babywise. I know there is a lot of controversy out there about it but we really didn't follow it exactly, we let Logan set his own routine after a little guidance. Basically the schedule goes like this: Eat, Play, Sleep. From the time he eats until he sleeps he is usually up 1.5hrs then he takes 2-3 hour naps. Right now he is waking up one time around 4pm to nurse and then sleeps until 8am sometimes 9am. This kid loves to sleep! Breastfeeding is going well, I don't enjoy the pumping at work some days I have long meetings and get really full, not fun!

• Exercise: After the first week of work I didn't think I would be able to ever run again. It was hard trying to figure out a schedule between the 3 of us, but I finally did it. For the last 2 weeks I have been running on Tuesday/Thursday @ 6am and Saturday/Sunday around 7-8am. I am finally running 3 miles without stopping. I do weights twice a week. It feels great to slowing getting back to the old me! I still don't fit into my pre-pregnancy pants but we are getting there! 

• Childcare: My husband works from home so he is doing the daddy daycare thing. He wouldn't be able to do it if Logan didn't sleep more than half the day. We know that won't last forever so we plan on getting a nanny 3 days a week.

I promise I am reading all of your blogs! I will also post a post-baby body pic soon!

Back To Blogging!

Well, Logan will be at 11 weeks on Sunday. I can’t believe I have a 3 month old (almost) and I have to go back to work in a week. I just breaks my heart. I have been terrible at posting. I totally plan on starting a family blog here very soon! I will keep you all posted. I promise I will post more. I still follow along and need to comment more. This blog helped me through some really tuff times and I want continue on now that baby is here. Also, we will be planning for another FET sometime next year!

I meant to post this pics weeks ago, this is how big I got, no wonder I only made it to 38 weeks. I was about to burst! I still have 10-15lbs to lose, I think once I stop breast feeding it will come off a lot quicker. Who knows?! Maybe not?! I didn’t start taking pics until 10 weeks, I wish I would have taken one sooner but I just couldn’t, I remember being so scared to take one at 10 weeks. 

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3 Weeks Old

Baby Logan is 3 weeks today! Wow, time sure does fly by! It's so nice having time off from work, it will be very hard going back! We still need to figure out childcare, my husband works from home so he will bring him at least 4 times a week, roughly 5 hours a day. I will pick him up.
Right now we are still figuring out how to sleep at night. This little night owl has his days/nights mixed up. I need to start reading some books. We plan on reading Baby Wise, anyone else have any suggestions for books or sleeping better at night, let me know! He sleeps great and eats great...during the day. We try to keep him up but he fall into a milk coma every time, nothing works to keep him up. We even strip him naked, which he hates but seems to settle into when he's tired.

Other than that we couldn't be more happy! We comment everyday on how amazing he is and how amazing CC.RM is! Seriously without them we wouldn't have this little guy. I just can't get over he was  a frozen embryo!

I am feeling so much better and I am healing well after the c-section. I had a dr appointment the other day and I am cleared to start walking and doing light weights and cardio, no abs or course. Yesterday I went for a 30 min walk and it felt great!  I am in no rush to lose the weight, have lost 18 of the 33 lbs so far. I don't own a scale and will only know my weight loss when I go to my appointments. I typically base my weight loss on how my clothes fit and right now, I only fit in dresses and yoga pants! I noticed I am more hungry now than I was when I was pregnant, so that worries me. At 6 weeks I am defiantly going to beef up my workout routine and eating plan. Easier said than done!

Here are some newborn pics we had taken.

Birth Days...

I have put this off way too long. Here is his birth story. It all began Friday, August 3rd at 1:45am, I guess that would technically be August 4th.

When I got home from work that day I was feeling very tired and just wanted to rest. I was having some pretty hard braxton hicks at work, at one point I even thought about laying on the floor in my office to have my belly relax a bit. When I got home from work around 4pm I kept going pee like every half hour that night and even told my husband I think I keep peeing my pants because I changed my under 3 times, they were wet. That night around 1:30pm I woke up with the urge to go #2 so I walked downstairs to the bathroom as I didn't want to wake my husband. I was peeing and heard a pop sound. I thought that seemed like a weird bone to pop. Anyways, my urge for #2 went away after I sat down. I just peed again and went to bed. As soon as I laid down, a big gush came out and I knew my water had broken. I woke up my husband at around 1:45am and let him know what had happened. We couldn't believe this was it and this is how it was happening. He was 2 weeks early! Once I stood up from bed a lot of fluid came out, just like in the movies, thank god I wasn't in public. We finished packing our bags, thankfully I didn't have much to pack, my husband on the other hand had nothing pack except for the things I had packed for him. Nothing happened after my water broke until about 3pm, then the contractions started. They started out as menstrual cramps, easy to breathe through, at that time headed to the hospital.

Triage: We arrived at 3:30am, I was hooked up to monitor me and baby. Contractions were getting stronger and closer. The sad thing was I was still only measuring 1cm, that was too be expected though because of the scar tissue. The nurse tested my fluid to make sure my water did break. The nurse also had to do an ultrasound to figure out what position he was in. That was extremely uncomfortable, laying on your back, during a contraction. She couldn't find his position so I had to wait for another nurse to come in and figure it out. He was head down, slightly crooked and sunny side up. I hated triage, they kept wanting me to lay down and I just wanted to stand up and walk around through the contractions. I finally just told them I needed to stand up and move around. I couldn't wait to move to our own room, I was sharing a bathroom with another woman and she was screaming bloody murder, I am not trying to be mean but when you are in labor and someone is screaming at the top of their lungs it was very irritating. I remember telling my husband he needed to ask to change rooms but that was about the time we were switched to L & D.

L&D: We were moved to labor and delivery after about 1 hour after triage. They hooked me up, asked me tons of questions and prepped me for an epidural. I asked about being dilated further along before the epidural but they said it was fine to have it now. Little did I know I would be in labor for 28 hours and getting that epidural so early turned out to be a mistake. Once I got the epidural it was basically hurry up and wait. Not much happened, we waited until 5am to call family and friends to let them know what happened. I was able to rest and watch some Olympics. I finally started progressing around 12pm on Saturday, August 4th. I was 4cm dilated and then 2 hours later I was 5cm. Since my water broke they only checked me every 2 hours. At that point we were thinking we would meet this little guy that evening. I think it was around 10pm that night I was finally 9 but I remained that way until 3:30am. At that point they were giving me the highest dose of pitocin to increase the contractions and the pain was so bad I had my husband get the nurse to turn off the pitocin.  The nurse turned down the pitocin, but not off. The epidural was not strong enough at this point and I am not a big fan of pain. I dealt with the pain for the next 3 hours, my doctor came into to check me again and said she just doesn't think the baby can fit through the canal. At that point we decided a c-section would be the best option. I agreed, I was so exhausted and didn't even know how I would have the energy to hold him once he arrived.

C-Section: Logan Drew was finally born on August 5th at 7:37am. I was so scared to have a c-section, because of the break through pain with the epidural. I also didn't trust that they were going to numb me completely. When people say having a c-section is the easy way out, they are truly wrong. Laying in an operating room, while someone cuts you open to deliver your baby was not easy. You can hear and see everyone in the room. I couldn't even see what was happening in the lights above me. I looked a few times but turned my head and closed my eyes while my husband held my hand. When they were ready to pull him out my Dr. let me know, there was a lot of pressure and then all of a sudden a very loud screaming baby boy. It was amazing finally seeing him, my husband was still able to cut the cord and went with him to get cleaned up. I laid there until they fixed me up and I was ready for recovery. We declined the eye ointment and Hep B shot. We did get the Vitamin K shot.

Logan Drew weighed 8lbs 4oz and was 21 1/2 inches long. I am grateful he came 2 weeks early otherwise he would have been 9.5 lbs. He was so smashed in the birth canal, he came out with the biggest cone head and his nose was bruised from being pushed up against the birth canal. He also had bruises on his chest, arms, back and legs. Poor guy, wish I would have gotten the c-section sooner.

Recovery Room: Once wheeled into recovery, I was shaking like crazy, they gave me a shot of Demerol and the shakes went away. Logan was laying under a warmer with his eyes wide open. We started breastfeeding and he caught on pretty quick.

Hospital Stay: The staff was amazing, I appreciated the stay and glad they were there to help us. I was in so much pain from the surgery. Getting up to go to the restroom for the first time was pretty intense. I really never knew how much recovery there is with a c-section.  We were able to spend some quality time with the lactation consultants during our stay, which helped a lot, Logan would latch on, latch off and get frustrated but they came in to help him with that and we are doing great now. Logan had jaundice so he was constantly checked and we did have to feed him some formula to help get rid of the jaundice and because his birth rate fell to 7.9lbs. After that first day of breastfeeding he would not eat for about 10 hours. I felt so bad for him. He is doing great now on his own.

We are home and I am so thankful for my husband, without him I don't know what I would have done. He has changed 99% of the diapers and even helped me change a few times. I can finally move around a lot more but try to take it easy because I want to heal quickly from this surgery. We are so grateful for this little man. He is truly amazing! Today is the day he was created in CO one year ago. I remember all the tears on that day and now I can't get over holding our little one.

Here we are in recovery. 

He's Here!!!!

I will tell you all about it soon!!!!!