Monday, August 22, 2011

Day 6 Report

And then there were 2. We have 2 beautiful blasts. Grades: 5AA & 5AB that doesn't really mean much since they could still be abnormal but at least they are abnormally strong. At least I know we can make embryos and really it's a 50/50 chance if they are abnormal. Ever since I got the horrible news last Wednesday that we only had 4, I was dead set on not doing the CCS testing and just freezing them and doing another cycle. But, after today's call, my husband and I just felt that we should do the CCS testing. I know they could both blasts come back abnormal, that is something I can't control. We both just felt that in our hearts we needed to go ahead as planned. I have to have faith. I told my husband I will always hope for the best but expect the worse. I know that sounds awful but I need that, it helps me prepare for what is next. I guess I could say" hope for the best and prepare for the worst" that sounds a little better. I am so glad I have this blog as an outlet and I know I am not the most positive blogger out there but I just try to keep it real. I am grateful for all or your comments and support. I even find much support in just reading your blogs and what all of your experiences are. Without them, I would be in this alone.
I still have a lot of questions for Dr. G upon his return. Some of you mentioned about back-up samples and yes, we had 2 frozen back up samples. I did ask the embryologist about that and she said they always like to use a fresh sample when possible. I just need to regroup with Dr. G and drill him with questions.
So now we wait for the results. I feel horrible that I had lost all hope, I am glad I have it back again!

10 comments:

  1. Those are great grades!!! Fingers crossed that one or both comes back normal!!!

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  2. Glad to hear the hope is back! Wishing the best for you that both come back normal.

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  3. Those are really good grades!! And don't feel bad for losing hope - it's part of this process - up and down and we ALL go through it. No one has a completely easy ride through this journey. You sound like you're in a really good space and I think you're making the right decision going ahead with the CCS. I'm so hoping one or both of your little guys comes back as normal!

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  4. Congrats on 2 awesome embryos!! Fingers crossed and prayers being said that both test normal!! I'm glad you have a little of your hope back. :)

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  5. That is wonderful you have 2 great embabies :) Wishin you the best!

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  6. This is wonderful news! I am so happy to hear you ended up with two healthy blasts! I'll be praying that they come back normal. fingers and toes crossed! I know what you mean about not being the eternal optimist. It's kind of unrealistic to be positive about everything. It's a balance.

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  7. I hear you girl. Believe me. I had to wait for ONE blast to pass CCS - a 5BB no less- And it did. You have an awesome chance. Those grades look great. Do have faith. And like my counselor said...go home and cry. This is very stressful and we feel like if we break down than we are giving into 'negative thinking'. Not true. Do what you must to get through this. Your fate is sealed already. Good you went with your gut. Praying for you.

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  8. Great grades!! I hope they are both normal! That would be awesome! Remember to call them right at the 2 week mark. They always have the results by then. GL!

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  9. Congrats on the 2 great embies! I just found your blog and I am glad there is hope again! I will be following along!

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  10. That is wonderful news that you have two beautiful, excellent quality embies!!! And I totally agree with your plan -- you have to do what you and your DH are most comfortable with and if that's doing CCS now to learn even more about your embies then I'm so excited for you to have this plan! It sounds like you have such a great attitude about it all too. FX for those CCS results!!!

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