Thursday, August 18, 2011

Taking Action

So yesterday was a really bad day. My husband ended up calling the embryologist yesterday to try to find out some answers. I was too crushed to even talk to anyone. They were super nice on the phone and told us they were all thinking about us. They also told us they were expecting better results from us too and to hang in there. The conversation did make me feel better but John the embryologist is calling us tomorrow to see how things are progressing on Day 3 and to see where we go from here. I have made up my mind and if we only have 1 that makes it to day 5 we are not doing CCS testing. We told them this yesterday on the phone as well. We are going to freeze it and then do another egg retrieval as soon as we can. Once we get the number of embryos we need, we will do the CCS testing on all of them together. At this point I am expecting the worse news tomorrow. It makes me feel better to think about the worst possible outcome. I am just trying to be realistic about our situation. CCRM has amazing fertilization rates and we didn't even get 50%. I am not sure what questions we are going to ask tomorrow but I will figure that out tonight sometime.
I want to thank you all for you support! I really, really appreciate it. More than you can ever know. I am not sure what hope means to me anymore when it comes to science. I think I just need to be realistic about our chances from now on. We came to CCRM to create our family, bottom line is they can either do it or they can't. To me no hope can change that.
I also have to comment on this belly I have since egg retrieval. It looks and feels terrible. I am trying my best to get it under control but I have no idea it would be this bad.

8 comments:

  1. That's good you are being proactive about getting some answers. I know you must be so disappointed but I am still hoping you will get some good news tomorrow. Hang in there! Did they ICSI all your eggs?
    Hope your belly feels better - Drink lots of fluids and add salt to your food!

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  2. ((HUGS)) I am thinking of you and hoping you get good results tomorrow and that your post-ER belly gets better very soon

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  3. I wanted to ask you if you ICSI's all your eggs too. We actually did IMSI I think it's called, it's a bit more expensive but they can select the sperm better, not that I'm blaming the sperm... I hope Dr. G has a better idea what's going on and if you need to, a better plan for a future cycle. Stay positive! Eat tons of protein too, it helps absorb the extra fluid from the follicles.

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  4. You know I'm rooting for you. Glad you're getting some more information and answers.

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  5. Thanks ladies for you continued support. Just to answer a few questions we did do the IMSI as we know we do have bad sperm. But that is going to be one of my questions tomorrow to make sure that happened.

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  6. Ugh, Im sorry it's so hard for you to feel hope today. We're all out here hoping for you, and I'm praying for a great update from you tomorrow!

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  7. I'm sorry that you have to go through this...I hope that the call today went well. I'm going to read your blog from start to finish. If we don't get a BFP at the end of this IUI cycle, we're moving onto IVF and CCRM is on my list of places to look into...Sending you a lot of positive thoughts.

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  8. It's so hard to stay positive through all of this - I totally get it and I hope you will get some decent news tomorrow and let a little bit of hope back in. Been thinking about you lots - take care and know that we're all here to support you!!

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